Me

My father was a supervisor  in a company. We had a very nice life I can say. Mandug Davao in Mindanao I was born.  If you will go to Mindanao, particular in Davao and ask where's mandug?  That place was a very critical area.  A lot of people were scared in that place. In 1980s  I've seen it with my own eyes,  the helicopters above our house and military soldiers were everywhere firing the rebels. My mother was so brave that we  never moved out from that Village. I was raised to be brave in life.  My grandfather was a Musician. He was a leader of Rondalla Club  and my grandmother was a midwife. My father  was a Valedictorian got high medals and honors in his time and had a wonderful job. Since my father got high position in a company, In that village where we lived, everybody knows us. I can still remember the time I was baptized I was five years old.  I have 36 sponsors and we had feast in our house. 4 pigs were killed and a lot of  food. The problem began when I was seven years old. My father and mother were separated . My sister was almost a teacher and my brother an engineer. All of us finished high school fortunately. Leah my sister went to the ministry and did theology course.  She's 40 years old now and has four kids. Al my brother wants  to work  than to be an engineer. He worked at my aunt's printing press, bakery and restaurant.   He is 38 years old now and has three kids.

 My mother did a lot of work for us to finish our studies. She was a choir member , Beautician, Seller, Worker in any kind of work. She has to earn  money for us to survive for the day.  That time I told myself that all men are like my father, I don't want to have any relation.  If only he didn't  left us, we had an individual careers now. My mother was always on my side.  She taught me how to be tough in life. I didn't have  luxurious things while studying. I have to walk to go to school 1 kilometer everyday.  I didn't have fancy things what the girl wants. The money was enough for food and some other things that most needed. As what I've said, we're living in a scary and critical area.  I was immune about fighting and surviving. When I knew that my mother entered as a Chef  Cook in the Kingdom of Jesus Christ I was alone after I graduated high school.  She waited until that moment. She was assigned before in Manila, but now in Dubai. I was in Davao that time.

 I followed my sister and did also Theology Course and became a Crusader  Musician when I was 17 yrs. old. It was fun! We went to many places included abroad. We did a lot of Concerts  I was a traveller. I went out when I was 27 years old and decided to start a new life. I decided to do business with a friend  buy and sell. I chose shoes and bags from Korea a slightly used things. Okay Okay in Visaya. 'Twas a big hit! Filipinos loved it because it was durable, branded and most of all very low price. We  have four  helpers in our  two places in Cagayan De Oro Divisoria  Nightcafe had an apartment, my dog lucky, complete appliances and a Multicab. After five years, I felt bored in my life. One day I thought about  having  kids and a good husband.

One time, I opened my PC and started to be curious in Dating Sites. I just registered on Meetic.com. I put my profile there. I was very serious of  searching someone that was not Filipino. It was almost five months had talked  a lot of men in the site.  1,400 men visited my page, but still I could not fInd someone that even through writing we can connect each other. I've almost deleted my profile and thought that no one were serious on net. If I knew that they just want to have fun or do dirty deeds I cut it immediately. Early morning 5am, I opened my PC again and Bert finally made me fall in love. We talked five hours a day.  I like his point of views his smart, gentle and most of all he has respect. I felt his sincerity and passion that's why he got my respect too. He showed me  his tattoos, but  it's Ok.   The most important  is inside not the outside.  I left everything to a close friend the business and my lucky.  A soft coated terrier dog. I went to manila and Bert and  I finally met.  Now, we're happily married and hopefully our baby angel will come soon.

This is My LucKy Dog

Hate and Love

Why did people hated someone? Basically if that someone did something wrong on him/ her. If that person got jealous about what the other has more than what they've got. There's saying same feather pluck together they just like who are the same as them and hate those who are not. They are so denial in the fact that, there are also so many people has more advantages than them. What are the advantages?  Oh.. for example the neighbour has a nice house, clothes, cars, toys, etc what the world can give. The same also if someone they know that much more brilliant and know so many things than them. The point is, jealousy is a combination of hate so many didn't notice that they've got that feeling. What about love? Love is unconditional what is unconditional?  True love that don't have agenda like, you can better be good to me so that I will love you, better listen always what I'm going to say, like all that I  like, please me and praise me always. That is some kind of a selfish behavior. That's why for me..?  hate me if you want, Love me if you can.

GRANTED!!

Last Friday I got the letter from IND  (Immigrate en Naturalisatiedients). I was nervous and so excited that I opened it immediately and translated it through dictionary. What a big surprise! My application for residence permit was granted. We applied it Oct. 21,2009 and the confirmation letter was only one week. The following week after,  I got the decision. The IND gave me from 21st of October 2009 until 21st of October 2014 the RESIDENCE PERMIT. I'm so happy we're back here in Holland! It means that schooling will start. I will go to school to learn dutch , but  because I have status in Germany the Gemeente will not oblige me to learn dutch. I can choose what kind of school and what kind of lessons I'm going to take. It's up to me the city in charge said in five years, I have to do dutch lessons and they will shoulder my schooling if  I want and get diploma to have a better work. I like it also if  I know how to speak dutch it  makes my life easier to communicate. Hopefully, I can get dutch passport. It will be so tough,  but there's no glory without sacrifice. We can't get everything what we want in just one snap of our fingers. God Jesus Christ is always there and of course faith with work.

What I observed

Many people asked how's Holland? Well,  in almost eight months living here. It's really different it's a twist from the country where I've been. Wind mills and landscape are unique Tulips flowers are one of their pride and cheese. The houses are so organized and almost the same the landscape designed like a picture painting. Friesland part of Netherland where we live and it's so peaceful here there are no gates in every house the windows are made of glass, mostly people have their own car. A lot also using bicycle for its so handy because you don't have to park and pay for parking fee. Even you forgot your personal things nobody will  take it. It's a rich  and expensive  country  I can say.

As what I observed, dutch people like eating and drinking always a cup of coffee and cookies or cakes on sidings.The social aspect, the togetherness is more important than the food itself. While eating or gathering, they like to talk about personal topics and do not have specific to be discuss. Whatever comes up that's it. Most dutch people like meat and pork they don't like fish and vegetable so much. Filipino eat always rice, but dutch people eat potatoes and bread. I used to cook meat w/ vegetable and spices together, but here they like it seperately. In the Philippines, we have ate for the older sister and kuya for the older brother,  but here only calling on your first or last name even little kids. Greetings should be three times and saying doei (bye) before you go and hoi (hi) when you arrived.

It's a custom on birthday party to give presents. The people will not be curious anymore what you give because the birthday celebrant will open it directly in front of you. No malls here in our place only shopping store and it's nearby. When I arrived here, am always looking for bargain clothes 10 euro still 600 in the philippines,  but  now I'm almost used to it. Not expensive clothes will not last actually,  much more money I spend for I have to buy again and again. Doing transactions, meetings and appointment are so quickly here they are used to getting to the point straightaway no long time of waiting and done is done. The traffic rules so strict and so high when it comes to penalties. The people here have  freedom what they want to do. A christian and democratic county.

little bit facts about me

I'm emotional today I think because of my menstrual period. Am always have discomfort every month and try to ease through writing. I just want to say something about my observation, but it doesn't mean that I'm pointing to someone. Generally speaking, so that my friends will know what are the few facts about me. I'm easy to be handle, one of my closest friend said and of course my husband Bert. I can be a good friend too, but I am always putting a gap in between. Not that it will come out to be more on familiarity. To have friends are good, but be watchful best friends can be your best enemy. It's so difficult to please everyone.

What i like and don't like

The days are going so fast I'm almost eight months here in Holland. It's not easy to live in  the culture that I didn't used to.I have to learn Dutch so that I can communicate to people. But I'm living in Friesland part of  Holland and the family of Bert talking fries. It's so hard to understand because I know only basic dutch language. We have different personal characters and attitudes. My parents raised me to be frank and not to backbite. I'ts better to tell  in front of me than to know it from the others. Don't start to be nice if you don't like and stay who you are. The thing is, why it's like there's nothing wrong and trying to be nice. Being nice in outside it's nothing for me. I'm not saying that I am perfect, but I will not do some efforts just to please everybody. Whatever you've seen on me that's me and I'm not hiding anything. I'm ok if I'm alone and not bothering others. I can say that there's no such a true friend living in this world. The less you talk, the less mistakes. Me and Bert understand each other we know our likes and dislikes. The relation is going stronger and that what matter most.